Getting Better & a new toy

Well I am feeling better. :) I am happy to say my hives are gone. Gabe and I both have a cough but otherwise are feeling pretty good. We did however pass it on to Patrick :( I feel really bad that he is sick. Yesterday was my first good day and it was kind of the turn for the worse for him I think. Now if we could just get him on the right track I think we would all be better.

Patrick got a new iPhone Sunday, so I got his old one, which is new to me and is kinda cool. I'm not totaly sure about it yet. It's like a new toy. I've never had a touch screen before so this is just totally new. I guess it's good ive been playing with it for a month now anyway lol. It makes me feel all fancy.

I went to the dentist today nothing exciting just my 6 month cleaning but now my teeth are all smooth :) He said that when ever I want I can take out my wisdom teeth...I think we will wait on that one. He said they aren't hurting anything by being there unless they are hurting me (and except for one day like 2 months ago they aren't). I guess we are just waiting to see what they do. I really don't want or need that bill right now so I think they might just stay where they are.

Moriah and Aden are coming over for a play date tonight :) I am excited, we haven't been able to hang out lately and we really need to catch up. The last time we saw them was Aden's birthday and that has been forever ago.

Church & Surgery

Well last week was a new experience for me. Patrick took me to church, but not just any church, but Woodcrest. It was different I'll tell you that much. Don't get me wrong, it just wasn't what you expect from a typical church, which was great. I didn't feel like they were pushing God down my throat like I feel so many churches do. They have a great kids area. I personally got a kick out of kidcrest. I had a good time and now Patrick is taking me again this week only this time Gabe gets to partake in kidcrest, I'm interested to see what he gets to do. Of course I have to make sure there aren't any snacks cause that could be bad.

Gabe's Surgery got pushed back to March 11th. My poor little boy couldn't avoid this sickness that everyone else has so its in his chest and all icky and they couldn't do the anesthesia. Hopefully by March we will be out of cold and flu season and we can get this stupid thing done.

I have also been sick for like a month as I believe everyone knows. This last week the doc gave me Amoxicillin which I thought was starting to help then I got worse. I woke up a couple days ago covered in spots. Come to find out it's Hives and I'm allergic to Penicillin, which is odd because I never have been before. I guess there is a first time for everything. I am now on Steroids which is actually doing me great wonders. Hopefully my hives will be gone soon and I will be back to normal.

New Years and Other Stuff

Well the past few weeks have been hard on me, because I have been sick. I haven't been at work much, and I have felt pretty worthless. For a couple days I didn't even get off the couch. Thankfully I was feeling pretty good for New Years and Patrick and I went up to Salisbury. We had a great time with everyone there. :D Gabe stayed at my parents. Ma-maw and Pa-paw always spoil my boy.

Patrick and I have been hanging out with our two new best friends, Nathan & Lindsey. If you don't already know Nathan is my cousin, and Lindsey is his girl friend. I have seen a lot more out of Nathan since Sean left and in turn more of Lindsey (who I get along great with :) ). Recently I had Patrick meet Nathan which I must say I had my worries about just because of the whole cousin and boyfriend thing. Needless to say they are getting along great and are definitely having a bro-mance. I don't think either of them really appreciate this term but there is just no better way to put it. I love hanging out with the three of them, but I still don't quite know what to think about the fact that Nathaniel calls Patrick more than he calls me. I mean hello he is MY cousin, but what can I do. lol  However I have hung out with Lindsey when Nathan wasn't there so I guess it might be kinda similar. :D Anyway the four of us went to the Range the other day. (bang bang) I had great fun, I always do with them.

Not much else for now. Hopefully I can get on here in 10 days and tell you the surgery is over with, and that Gabe is done with that. (cross your fingers).

New Year

Well this last year was definitely full of changes. I wasn't always sure if they were good or not, but have found lately that I am OK with change. I can say one thing about Sean's decision to leave me, and that is that I didn't realize how strange/bad our relationship was getting, or how much I wasn't getting out of it. I was happy, but it was kind of a delusional happy. Looking back on the last year even through all of the pain and confusion, I think it was a good choice. I still wish I would have had a little more warning, or have seen all the signs that were obviously there, but this is a new year.

I'm looking forward to my new life and all it has in store for me. This year is going to be a year of new beginnings.

• The divorce will be final this year, hopefully sometime soon so that Sean and I can both put that behind us. There is a lot of drama involved and I really just want it to be over.
• Gabe's surgery is supposed to be this month and I am really hoping that we can finally get this done. I am tired of waiting and fighting the system. I just want his circumcision fixed so I don't have to worry about it anymore. Ugg.
• My baby boy turns two this year! I'm super excited, and really don't want him to grow up all at the same time. I guess that's just part of being a mommy.  :D
• I'm also excited about my and Patrick's new relationship. I cant wait to see where it leads us. It has been great so far having his support through all of this.
• I'm hoping to back to school this year as well. I just don't really want the time commitment right now. I just haven't felt like I get to see Gabe enough these past few weeks.

Gabe is doing really good. I have started him on a new bed time routine. He goes to bed at 8:30 every night, and best of all, he does so in his own bed. Most of time he hasn't been giving me any trouble, as long as he has both puppies and a bottle by his side. He is getting so big. I do think that his new bed time is part of the reason I don't feel I get to spend enough time with him though. I know how good it is for him but I miss getting to spend 4 hours after work with my baby, especially since I only get two now.

CHRISTMAS!! :D

It's almost hard to believe that 2010 is almost over and that Christmas has already come and gone. In less than two months my little boy will be Two years old. Time is just flying by so quickly.

Well I guess I should give you the overview of the last few days. which I thought was crazy for me, but my little boy has been busier than me and has been worn out (but at least it's because of all the fun he's been having).

On Christmas Eve he was with his daddy for a party over at his Nana's house. then he came home and we went to the Kite family Christmas party. When he woke up on Christmas morning we opened presents at home. Then we went to Mam-ma and Paw-pa's house. From there we went strait over to Granny and Papa's for the Bias Family Christmas. Gabe got about an hour and a half to relax and then his Daddy came over to take him to his house for one last party. Needless to say when he got home he was ready for bed.

It was all a great time, Gabe and I both had a wonderful Christmas. We got to spend time some much needed time with family, and of course got lots of presents.

My house is a disaster. I have slowly been working on putting away the new stuff and just cleaning the house in general, but it still looks like a tornado hit it. I guess that is to be expected after Christmas.

This weekend Patrick and I are going to a New Years Eve Party at Lauren & Greg's house in Salisbury. It should be a great time. I haven't seen them since Halloween and we are way overdue for a visit.

Here are some photo's from the Holiday :D

Opening Presents

Gabe sitting at his new table with his puppy dogs :)

Patrick and I, Christmas Eve. :D

Christmas is Nearing

Well this week has been full of Christmas Parties.

On the 17th we had the Lunch bunch Christmas Party. It was at Connie's house. She went all out in the decorations! (Phyllis counted around 60 Santas). Jill made Lasagna which was yummy!! We did our little present exchange and had a great time.

On the 18th I went with Patrick to his work party for CCC. I met tons of new people and had a great time! I wasn't sure what to expect, there were tons of different personalities. The evenings started off with a strange discussion about the matrix and what happens if they have kids and how they have kids (I stayed out of that, it was all quite strange to me, lol) then we had "The best Tamales in town" for dinner! After which we went downstairs for a "Pool tournament" which just ended up being random people playing pool whenever they wanted, lol.

On the 21st I dragged Patrick to the Ashland party. My mom and Diane were sick and Abbi couldn't make it :( but over all it was fun. We still had 10 people there which is pretty good for Ashland. It's not like there are very many of us. Dinner was wonderful.

All three were lots of fun. I love the Christmas season!! :)

Moving On With Life

OK I wanted to update everyone on what is going on with Sean and I. So on Monday we went to a lawyer. It was a consultation so that we knew what we were getting into, with the divorce. They kinda just let us know how to go about it, whether we wanted to use a lawyer or not. so pretty much there is about 80 pages of  forms that we have to fill out, and agree upon completely. We also have to pay $192 for court costs. Wait a month go to trial and be done. So anyway we are just trying to get the paperwork done so we can both fully move on.

Sean and I are both trying to move on with our lives. He has obviously done so easier and quicker than I have. He and Cristy seem to be happy, which is good. I don't have to like his relationship but I am happy that he is happy none the less.

I have recently after about 4 months started to move on myself. I am done with the marriage. That has been pretty clear in my head for a month or two. I'm not gonna try anymore. All that ever did was make it worse. My plan in my head was quite simply to be single and enjoy the time with my son and just not worry about men, or any of their drama. This was my plan at least until the divorce was final, and possibly after that.

Obviously non of this was a final decision. I'm just trying to live life and see what it has for me. I had recently reconnected with a friend from high school, Patrick, who is oddly enough going thru the same thing I am. His wife had left him and they also have munchkins involved however they have two little boys. I am lucky enough to say that Sean and I are civil and are working things out as smooth as I think any divorce with kids involved can go. Patrick is not so lucky. Anyway he like I was planning on staying single and just getting everything going his way.

Like I said we have recently reconnected, over our mutual ickyness in life. He came over and fixed my computer :) YAY. So we then started to hang out some and he brought his boys over for a play date. Anyway, I totally see him differently then I ever did in high school. After hanging out for a while we just kind of decided that we are dating. I don't really know how to explain it, it was very unexpected, we were just friends that were there to comfort each other. Just someone to talk to. I don't really know what else to say about it, other than I'm happy. And I gotta tell you, I didn't know if that was gonna happen.

I was in a pretty bad place there for a while and just put on a happy face but now I can honestly say that my happy face is totally genuine. :) Sean and I are both happily moving on and I am amazed by how strangely easy it has been for me.

The only thing I worry about is Gabe and if the decisions we are making in the divorce are right for him and if we are both doing everything for him that we are supposed to. I do get frustrated with Sean over certain things that have to do with Gabe, but that is to be expected so hopefully we can handle this in the best way possible and have a happy baby boy.

I don't know if all of you will be OK with me moving on at this time, or think that I am going about things in the right way, but I do hope that you all can support me. Having your love and support means a lot to me. If you don't agree I guess you can just send me a message or something, but you have to understand that while I will listen to what you have to say this is my life and I am just trying to move on in the best way that I know how.