Moving On With Life

OK I wanted to update everyone on what is going on with Sean and I. So on Monday we went to a lawyer. It was a consultation so that we knew what we were getting into, with the divorce. They kinda just let us know how to go about it, whether we wanted to use a lawyer or not. so pretty much there is about 80 pages of  forms that we have to fill out, and agree upon completely. We also have to pay $192 for court costs. Wait a month go to trial and be done. So anyway we are just trying to get the paperwork done so we can both fully move on.

Sean and I are both trying to move on with our lives. He has obviously done so easier and quicker than I have. He and Cristy seem to be happy, which is good. I don't have to like his relationship but I am happy that he is happy none the less.

I have recently after about 4 months started to move on myself. I am done with the marriage. That has been pretty clear in my head for a month or two. I'm not gonna try anymore. All that ever did was make it worse. My plan in my head was quite simply to be single and enjoy the time with my son and just not worry about men, or any of their drama. This was my plan at least until the divorce was final, and possibly after that.

Obviously non of this was a final decision. I'm just trying to live life and see what it has for me. I had recently reconnected with a friend from high school, Patrick, who is oddly enough going thru the same thing I am. His wife had left him and they also have munchkins involved however they have two little boys. I am lucky enough to say that Sean and I are civil and are working things out as smooth as I think any divorce with kids involved can go. Patrick is not so lucky. Anyway he like I was planning on staying single and just getting everything going his way.

Like I said we have recently reconnected, over our mutual ickyness in life. He came over and fixed my computer :) YAY. So we then started to hang out some and he brought his boys over for a play date. Anyway, I totally see him differently then I ever did in high school. After hanging out for a while we just kind of decided that we are dating. I don't really know how to explain it, it was very unexpected, we were just friends that were there to comfort each other. Just someone to talk to. I don't really know what else to say about it, other than I'm happy. And I gotta tell you, I didn't know if that was gonna happen.

I was in a pretty bad place there for a while and just put on a happy face but now I can honestly say that my happy face is totally genuine. :) Sean and I are both happily moving on and I am amazed by how strangely easy it has been for me.

The only thing I worry about is Gabe and if the decisions we are making in the divorce are right for him and if we are both doing everything for him that we are supposed to. I do get frustrated with Sean over certain things that have to do with Gabe, but that is to be expected so hopefully we can handle this in the best way possible and have a happy baby boy.

I don't know if all of you will be OK with me moving on at this time, or think that I am going about things in the right way, but I do hope that you all can support me. Having your love and support means a lot to me. If you don't agree I guess you can just send me a message or something, but you have to understand that while I will listen to what you have to say this is my life and I am just trying to move on in the best way that I know how.